Just yesterday, I texted my friends like i do everyday asking to call. I was anxious and alone and scared. All i thought was, "im depressed, i need help, i need my friends to guide me to feeling better". What i didnt realize was that i depended on them too much. That i needed their validation so much. And so yesterday they told me that this wasnt healthy and that they love me but i cant be putting my life in their hands. I realized then that i was hurting them. So we talked, and ive decided to stop avoiding. To make a change and be on my own. Be my own person.
Today i looked at their activities, i realized they were online and playing games. Instantly my heart ached. I wanted nothing more than to text them and ask to watch. However i realized that this feeling is the exact feeling that i need to get through. I need to feel it. Make peace with it. Its terrifying.
So i went on here and searched up dependent. Hoping something will come up and help me understand myself better. How can i work on myself? And so i found this. I never knew that what i was displaying, how i felt was a real thing. This made me realize, im okay. I will be okay with being alone. I can work on myself. I will choose to.
Thank you so much for sharing this. It takes immense courage to do what you did.
Recognizing that painful feeling and choosing to face it—instead of immediately texting your friends—is a giant victory. That moment is the work. It’s the quiet triumph the article mentions, like ordering a coffee on your own or finding peace in being alone.
You said it perfectly yourself: "I will be okay with being alone." I can work on myself. I will choose to. That realization is the most powerful part of this journey. As you continue, remember to be compassionate with yourself, as this process is not simple.
Thank you again for your vulnerability and for sharing your powerful first step.
Just yesterday, I texted my friends like i do everyday asking to call. I was anxious and alone and scared. All i thought was, "im depressed, i need help, i need my friends to guide me to feeling better". What i didnt realize was that i depended on them too much. That i needed their validation so much. And so yesterday they told me that this wasnt healthy and that they love me but i cant be putting my life in their hands. I realized then that i was hurting them. So we talked, and ive decided to stop avoiding. To make a change and be on my own. Be my own person.
Today i looked at their activities, i realized they were online and playing games. Instantly my heart ached. I wanted nothing more than to text them and ask to watch. However i realized that this feeling is the exact feeling that i need to get through. I need to feel it. Make peace with it. Its terrifying.
So i went on here and searched up dependent. Hoping something will come up and help me understand myself better. How can i work on myself? And so i found this. I never knew that what i was displaying, how i felt was a real thing. This made me realize, im okay. I will be okay with being alone. I can work on myself. I will choose to.
Thank you so much for sharing this. It takes immense courage to do what you did.
Recognizing that painful feeling and choosing to face it—instead of immediately texting your friends—is a giant victory. That moment is the work. It’s the quiet triumph the article mentions, like ordering a coffee on your own or finding peace in being alone.
You said it perfectly yourself: "I will be okay with being alone." I can work on myself. I will choose to. That realization is the most powerful part of this journey. As you continue, remember to be compassionate with yourself, as this process is not simple.
Thank you again for your vulnerability and for sharing your powerful first step.